Refuse \ Refused

"The aim of art is to represent not the outward appearance of things,

but their inward significance"
Aristotle

"Doubt is not a pleasant condition, but certainty is absurd". Voltaire is right. Since when do we not doubt ourselves? Not that all of mine are valid but questioning and challenging myself is a bid to avoid further pitfalls. It feels absolutely terrifying to do something beyond your means. Because of the stigma that comes with failing. How many times would you be praise for making errors? Almost never. Nobody likes to feel like a failure. That said, people are more forgiving towards children than adults. The older you get, the less likely you are deemed to make errors or fail. That's unless you are repeatedly doing the same old thing. Like repeating a winning formula. It releases dopamine, you yearn for more rewards, the chances of failing should be minimise, which translates to no learning. There is a risk that comes with trying new things. The risk of not being accepted. The risk of ambiguity. The risk of no more winning formula. The risk of fatality. Or the risk of not risking.

Behind the glamour of a concert pianist, who can hear the mundane routines of repetitive chorus? Behind the elegance of a ballerina, who can see the deformities of the feet or feel the pain? What is beyond the grandeur of that facade, really?